winter break is over

I guess I had an alright winter break. I got to see some friends and family which I am highly thankful for but it must come to an end very soon. I've been thinking about going back to LA and dreading it. I am trying to convince myself it's because of all the studying I will have to do, the ridiculous schedule I must face, the late nights I must spend doing work, but in reality it's none of that. When it comes down to it, I don't want to go back because I don't want to feel alone again.


I wonder what that man standing there is thinking

"I see a generation, rising up to take their place, with selfless faith"

"The Only Baggage That You Can Bring"

This is a journal entry I wrote while eating dinner today.

12/04/08
"I'll admit it's hard to feel love sometimes. It's hard to see the things, events, people, and relationships around me as examples of love. I always blamed this feeling of missing out on love on my surroundings but now realize that it really starts within me.

As much as I seem to forget this, true love doesn't come from people, it comes solely from God. I think I have this misconception that Hollywood planted in me of this "Hot Pink" love that looks so appealing and catches my eye with its glamor from far away but only becomes more and more superficial as I get closer to it. 1st John 4 says "God is Love" and I need to start believing and trusting in that. Everyday I pray to be an example of love but now I realize that in order to be an example, I first have to understand what I am trying to exemplify.

You are good and I am not."

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