presence

i dont want to move without you

lift up your eyes to his countenance

"I am pleased with you, Bryan. How can I not love my son?"

very simple

everyone else fails.
but You're always there.
please draw me closer to you. I am tired of depending on people or myself.

optimist

my optimistic heart is slowly dissipating.
there is 80% good and 20% bad,
and I choose to only look at the 20% and beat myself up over it. I get angry, frustrated, bitter, hatred.
maybe this is me saying the 20% is more important than the bigger picture.
maybe it's me saying that the 20% reflects poorly on me.
maybe it's me thinking that I can fix the 20% and feel disgusted when it isn't fixed.
maybe it's me-

why is my life all about me?
where did I end up leaving my cross and walking on the path that seemed more pleasant and easy and fun?

I don't know where I am anymore.

psalm 51:17

You need to break my heart to bring it to contrition.
You use my pain to teach me submission.
But Lord, I am in need of your patience.
I'm a slow learner but I want to listen.

en route

are we tourists or travelers?
I don't know about you, but I'm on my way home.