thoughts on love

do you dwell on how much it costs,
or rejoice,
through the pain,
at the outcome that was bought?

floating

you don't have to tread any longer.
tilt your head back, spread your arms out wide, breathe in
and let the current carry you to where you are supposed to be.

John 15:9

Maybe love is that tension between the two sides of your heart: one that says to keep pursuing and fighting and sacrificing, the second telling you to just give up and stay hurt.
Or maybe love is the victory when the first side overcame the second.

a moment from the past

He let his head fall into his hands. His body began shaking as he forced the pain from his body through tears from his eyes. How often he had to feel this same heartbreak, the wound reopened by countless, small, quick slices to the same spot under construction. The paper cuts all combined to eventually tear through any of the repairs that had taken place. No one paid attention to his sign that he was "In Repair" and took their jabs where they saw fit. He couldn't blame them though, he should have made the sign more visible to them. Maybe next time he will use neon paint. Maybe next time he'll scream out when the stab takes place instead of using all his strength to clench it deep within him. Maybe next time-

"For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal" - 2Corinth 4:17-18.

the whispers

sometimes I think, "Maybe, I'm the common denominator...I must be the one messing up. Something must be wrong with me."

and then I hear, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold the new has come."

but sometimes my mind is too loud to silence.