I'm so tired

I feel like I'm being crushed by the weight of my ambition, it's a constant feeling I have to deal with much like a disease. Maybe it's the optimist inside of me, but I can't help to believe that my ever soaring ambition was given to me for a reason. Although most of the time I find myself crawling on all fours struggling to pull along all the overbearing weight of all that I've attempted to accomplish, I can't stop myself from dreaming bigger and reaching ever higher. There is a passion inside my heart for something big, but I still haven't found what I'm looking for and I don't like feeling burnt out from trying to find it

Isaiah 53